So Moses asked Adonai, “Why have You brought trouble on Your servant? Haven’t I found favor in Your eyes—that You laid the burden of all these people on me?
I will say to God, ‘Do not condemn me; tell me why You contend with me.’
If You, Adonai, kept a record of iniquities— my Lord, who could stand?
Do not bring Your servant into judgment, for in Your eyes no one living is righteous.
So Moses cried out to Adonai saying, “What am I to do for these people? They are about ready to stone me.”
So Moses returned to Adonai and said, “Adonai, why have You brought evil on these people? Is this why You sent me?
Oy to me, my mother, that you gave birth to me— a man of strife and conflict to all the land! I did not lend or borrow, yet everyone curses me.
Why is my pain unending and my wound incurable, refusing to be healed? Will You be to me like a mirage of water that is undependable?
You say: “Serving God is worthless.” Also: “What good is it that we kept His service or that we walked as mourners before Adonai-Tzva’ot?
Moses heard the people wailing by their families, each man at the door to his tent. Adonai’s anger became very hot, and Moses was troubled.
If this is how You are treating me, kill me now! If I have found favor in Your eyes, kill me please—don’t let me see my own misery!”
Besides these other things, there is daily pressure on me of concern for all of Messiah’s communities.
How can I bear your load and burden and bickering by myself?