Oh that I might have my desire, that Eloah would grant me what I long for!
For Your deliverance my being has pined away, For I have waited for Your word.
I refuse to touch it, they are like food when I am sick.
That it would please Eloah to crush me, loose His hand and cut me off!
“And now, O יהוה, please take my life from me, for it is better for me to die than to live!”
But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a broom tree, and prayed that he might die, and said, “It is enough! Now, יהוה, take my life, for I am no better than my fathers!”
who are waiting for death, but it does not come, and search for it more than treasures;
who rejoice exceedingly, they are glad when they find the grave?
“My being has grown weary of life. I let loose my complaint, I speak in the bitterness of my being.
